Sleep gods come bless me!!!

It 7.45, Milena went to sleep at 7.30 (mini fist pumps) and thank god she did because I am KNACKERED! Yesterday i wrote how good things were going and its like i jinxed myself last night, literally the second i closed my laptop and started to find my cosy spot in bed, i just felt Milena kicking violently, if she ever kicks or it seems like she wants to wake up, i usually just put the dummy in her

mouth or maybe rock her a bit, but yesterday it was different, it happened the whole night, the only way i could get her back to sleep was to either stand up and rock her to sleep or to cuddle her tight and swaddle her with my arms! It was literally a "fuck my life" moment the whole life and i was just remembering all the times that i did not appreciate sleep! The worst thing was it was also a struggle for me to get to sleep i went to sleep at like 1am which is never the case with me!!! So i literally did not sleep at all last night! i came to the conclusion that Milena had wind and Colic, hence the heavy kicking!! I am to blame too, Milena has been using fast flow Tommie Tippie teats and yesterday i pierced a bigger hole in a slow flow one, hoping that it would be the same, well that clearly back fired!!! And to top it all off its as if my milk is drying up, i have come to the conclusion that I have been feeding Milena too much solids and not giving her enough boob, because i would demand feed, i only give her boob when she asks for it, and recently I was just giving her 3 feeds during the day and 2 a night, but when i say "feeds" during the day it really is pushing it, she would suck for a bit and seem uninterested! So i think i have been slowly decreasing it to like 2 feeds a day and well that is not enough!!! She usually does eat really well, but recently she hasn't really been eating as much as usual, I always want to blame her teeth but they are never going to come, I might have to start calling her Gummy Bear or something!!! So now my boobs are starting to not produce milk! (ultimate jar) I blame the night feed because that would be the time when She most fed but because i replaced it with a formula bottle I am not producing as much as i should ! so from tomorrow I am going to try and introduce some more day feeds and hopefully I will start producing more milk.

As for me 7.30 bed time means that I have treated myself to some "me time" i aim to be in bed by 9 because it has been a difficult day and I feel like all my energy is somewhere but my body! So i have made myself a green tea and honey face mask

and I am sipping on a calming camomile tea! The face mask is the only good thing to come from following Taz angels on snap chat and I will let you know the results of it! I also need to catch up on my monthly Vogue, however it is just sitting on my coffee table, another thing to add to my growing to do list!!!

Conclusion of my face mask: Skin is looking fleeky, I cleansed and toned and moisturied after and I loved that the green tea is a bit rough so i lightly scrubbed my face whilst i washed the mask off!!! so give it a try!!