Is it bed time yet?

So TV is a no no for me, after hearing a baby cry, nursery rhymes on repeat (I hate mother goose club, I wanna strangle that gay little boy lol and the sheep girl) hearing the toys go on and off, sitting down on the sofa and sitting on some sort of toy that blasts music, all I want to do when she falls asleep is to lay down in my bed and go on my phone in silence, I don't want anyone to talk to me, I don't want anyone to phone me, I will message a few people, but all I want to do is release the stresses of the day and be "maria" for a bit, not mummy. So since our bedtime is 8pm, I really just want to make it earlier and earlier lol, because all I want is that moment where the whole house is quiet and i can finally think about anything (whilst nursery rhymes go off in my head in the background because they are so fucking catchy and it's impossible to get them out of my head) but I've gained the new skill of being able to black out most noises from my head, what a non-mum will find annoying like Milena whining I will be completely zoned out lol, my blank game is so strong right now lol.